Thanks guys, very much appreciated. I don't understand it, never will and frankly I'm not going to try. However, it's better that it's over for her as it was a horrid disease, it's also a blessing for me as I don't have to helplessly watch someone I love slowly die in front of me anymore.
I'm very proud I could be there to make sure things were as she wanted right until the end. After the funeral, I felt a massive weight lifted from my shoulders. It's was like you've done your best for her, now let her go. Pickup the pieces and get on with it. Which is what I plan to do.
I really enjoy the Jeep stuff. As I've said, I just didn't know how to just start being involved again without saying something.